My mojo is gone.
I think it might be coming back, but for the last two weeks, I have been really, really unmotivated for riding, or even going to the barn in the first place - or, if we're honest, anything beyond laying on the couch and watching TV.
I kind of alluded to this on the Facebook fanpage and I was told to get out there and ride for those who don't have access or can't. This kind of gave me the niggle in the back of the brain, but last night, after being away from the barn for a whole week, as I prepared to go to the barn because I had no choice anymore because I had to go pay my board, I thought "boy, Bronwyn must miss me and think I abandoned her".
It's funny how that seemed to be the motivation that I needed. My silly, sweet girl had done nothing wrong. It literally was not her, it was me. She shouldn't be punished for my inadequacies.
I spent quite a long time out of the saddle, brushing, and then standing near her talking to Nat (which was also an immense help to my mood), just hanging out with her. Then I rode - I didn't ask for much, and we only puttered for about 25 minutes, but she did everything I asked, nothing complicated. We did a lot of bending and stretching, circles - she was surprisingly supple after a couple of weeks with no REAL work.
It all helped to lift my spirits - but I think what lifted them the most was this:
It's the MOST WONDERFUL TIIIIIIME OF THE YEEEEEEEEEEAR!!!!
